Are you happy?

[Paramananda das]

During Ratha Yatra in New York ,Satya Raja Prabhu asked me if I was happy.   I am happy I have the service to my Gurudeva and Srila Prabhupada:

nama om visnu-padaya  radhikayah priyatmane sri-srimad-bhaktivedanta narayana iti  namine

tvam gopika  vrisharaves tanayantike 'se

sevadhikarini guro  nija-pada-padme

dasyam pradaya kuru  mam vraja-kanane shri-

radhanghri-sevana-rase sukhinim sukhabdhau

"O beloved spiritual master, you  are always in the presence of the cowherd girl Radha, the daughter of King  Vrishabhanu. Please award me service at your lotus-like feet, which are the  proprietors of devotional service. Please place me in the ocean of joy by  bestowing upon me happiness in the mellows of service at the feet of Sri Radha  in the groves of Vraja Dhama."

mukam karoti  vachalam

pangum langhayate  girim

yat-kripa tam aham  vande

shri-gurum  dina-taranam

"I offer my respectful obeisances  unto my spiritual master, the deliverer of the fallen souls. His mercy turns the  dumb into eloquent speakers and enables the lame to cross mountains."

om  ajnana-timirandhasya

jnananjana-shalakaya

chakshur unmilitam  yena

tasmai shri-gurave  namaha

"I offer my respectful obeisances  unto my spiritual master, who has opened my eyes, which were blinded by the  darkness of ignorance, with the torchlight of knowledge."

radha-sammukha-samsaktim

sakhi-sanga-nivasinim

tvam aham satatam  vande

madhavashraya-vigraham

"O spiritual master, I  continually offer my obeisances unto you, who are always in the presence of  Srimate Radharani and very much devoted to Her. You always reside in the  association of Her confidantes, the gopis, and you are the abode of loving  devotion to Krishna."

nama-shreshtham  manum api shachi-putram atra svarupam

rupam tasyagrajam  uru-purim mathurim goshthavatim

radha-kundam  giri-varam aho radhika-madhavasham

prapto yasya  prathita-kripaya shri-gurum tam nato 'smi

"I bow down to the beautiful  lotus feet of my spiritual master, by whose causeless mercy I have obtained the  supreme holy name, the divine mantra, the service of the son of Shachimata [Lord  Caitanya], the association of Shrila Svarupa Damodara, Rupa Gosvami, and his  older brother Sanatana Gosvami, the supreme abode of Mathura, the blissful abode  of Vrindavana, the divine Radha Kunda and Govardhana Hill, and the desire within  my heart for the loving service of Sri Radhika and Madhava [Krishna] in  Vrindavana."

he guro jnana-da  dina-bandho

svananda-datah  karunaika-sindho

vrindavanasina  hitavatara

prasida  radha-pranaya-prachara

"O spiritual master, O giver of  divine wisdom, O friend of the fallen, you are the giver of your own bliss and  you are the only ocean of mercy. Although dwelling in Vrindavana, you have  descended for the welfare of fallen souls like myself and you are preaching the  divine love of Radha for Krishna. Please be kind upon me."

amsho bhagavato 'smy  aham

sada daso 'smi  sarvatha

tat-kripapakshako  nityam

tat-preshthasat  karomi svam

"I am a tiny part and parcel of  the Supreme Lord and I am always and in every way His eternal servant. As I am  always hoping for His mercy and kindness, I offer myself to His most dear  servitor, my spiritual master."

vancha-kalpa-tarubhyash cha

kripa-sindhubhya eva  cha

patitanam pavanebhyo

vaishnavebhyo namo  namaha

"I offer my respectful obeisances  unto all the Vaishnava devotees of the Lord. They are just like desire trees who  can fulfill the desire of everyone. They are oceans of mercy and are the  purifiers of the fallen souls."

Hare Krishna, Hare  Krishna, Krishna Krishna, Hare Hare

Hare Rama, Hare  Rama, Rama Rama, Hare Hare

I am very very very happy !

 

[Paramananda das]

Jayadvaita Swami had a formular for me to be happy sell books for the BBT, I did that for many years with no spiritual and material benefit for me at all.But when I met my Gurudeva he saved me from birth and death he gave me real life.

He told me you chant one lahk daily and remember Krsna .My only sadness is I miss Vrindavana, but I have to stay and preach in the west this is the desire of my Gurudeva and Srila Prabhupada ,People suffer so much due to lack of KC, and they will not even try to understand ,they are so unfortunate,still I distribute Srila Prabhupadas books and teach them in bhakti. How much they can take? So little!

Then why stay in this nasty western world? Is India any better or worse? Why not take sannyasa? I have a 13 year old son that is dependent on me.How can I take sannyasa.Srila Gurudeva told me in 2001 come with me I will give you sannyasa.

I told him :"Srila Gurudeva my son is only 3 years old ,how can I take"? He said do like Sukadeva Goswami leave all behind.

Then he said no you stay untill time is ripe then you take sannyasa.

Now that I have left the ISKCON institution finally I feel tons of burden of my shoulder, it is no longer my war. Srila Prabhupada told me in a dream you try to help my ISKCON, but again I tried and even left my Gurudevas lotusfeet and sanga to carry out this instruction.But I can not help ISKCON, I have to help my own spiritual life.Just chanting and remembering Krishna's lotusfeet.

Yes I am still distributing Srila Prabhupadas books after 33 years, and will try to as much as I can in this life, there is no help no support, nothing ,still I am doing. In this life Krsna is showing me again and again the harsh reality of material existence and the situation of ISKCON and Gaudiya math, it is a very harsh reality.

Who are your real friends in this world, who is a kind wellwisher, I see only Krishna .

These other phony friends and wellwishers are all useless and materialist persons,They have no connection to Krishna really.

We will be unhappy as long as we try to serve the body and mind and senses, outside of Krsnas service.I want to offer my life, mind ,thoughts at Krsnas lotusfeet every second of the day for all eternity.I have no seperate excistence outside of that.