What is my eternal relationship with Krishna ?

[Paramananda das]

What is my eternal relationship with Krishna ?
Srila Prabhupada came to give us clear understanding of the soul and and karma akama and devotional service,,but the question is to be raised do you know your eternal relationship with Krsna ? What rasa do you serve in in Goloka Vrindavana ? Or are you a Vaikuntha Bhakta,, or it does not matter at all to you because you are so absorbed in paying bills and have no time for your eternal relationship with Krsna ? Or you live in a temple and it does not matter to you because you have a place to stay some prasadam and some form of devotional service ,It is not enough ,,you need to ask yourself how do I serve Krsna in the spiritual world ,how will I attain to that service and Go back home to Godhead ,,how often do I remember Goloka Vrindavana ? I asked that question to my Gurudeva in 1989 in Mathura because I had desires to serve Krsna as a cowherd boy,, we all have such desires in our heart they should be cultivated not desires for name fame adoration and distinction ,money and sense gratification ,,,so my question to you all what is your eternal relationship with Krsna ,,even if you say servant that is not enough you should know and learn,,it begins with intense devotional service and Sadhusanga ,,lots of chanting Hare Krsna 16 rounds is not enough ,, you have to get to at least 64 rounds and clean the heart ,,and then find real devotees that can educate you in these things,, yes reading Bhakti RASAMRITA SINDHU helps ,Nectar of devotion ,,Srila PRABHUPADA wrote we should read from it every day,Gradually a desire will come to serve Krsna in one of the 5 Rasas,,my Gurudeva,Srila Narayana Maharaja had the spiritual vision and advancement to bring a devotee to this understanding ,,not every Guru is equal that is why one should have a advanced Madhyama adhikari Guru or UTTAMA Adhikari Guru ,,then you can learn these things,,reading Krsna book daily also helps,,I recall having read Krsna book for example with Aindra Prabhu and 10 canto he could never get enough of Krsnas lilas .Name fame pastimes etc as devotees this is our duty if we are tasting Krsna and love of KRSNA we can help others develop the same.How much do I love Radha and Krsna and Lord Caitanya in Guru Parampara? How much do I really qualify to be in Their association ? That should be in our mind like Srila Narottama das Thakura ,,when we read Parthana and Prema Bhakti Chandrika,, we can understand the mood of the 6 Goswamis and where we should be headed