Vyasa puja offering for my Gurudeva 2014

[Paramananda das]

dear Srila Gurudeva

Please accept my humble obaisences at your lotusfeet

All glories to   Sri Caitanya Mahaprabhu and Radha Vinodbihari

I first met you in 1986 and your lectures at Kesavaji Gaudiya math gave me so much life.Later you instructed me to chant 64 rounds and

become a ragatmika bhakta in the line of Subal sakha and Ujjvala Sakha.You asked me to daily enter the deep mood of Manah Siksa of Srila Raghunath das Goswami and enter the deep meditation of the astakaliya lilas of Lord Caitanya and Radha Krsna.I am trying to this day to follow these instructions to the letter.Sadly I am so fallen and have so little taste for lila smaranam and chanting the holy names of Krsna.You once wrote me that you wished you could just one time chant Krsnas holy name in prema.You did this , and when ever you would hear Hari Katha I would see tears often fall from your eyes.Not just hearing about Radha and Krsna ,but about Dhruva Maharaja and Prahlada Maharaja even.My heart is like a stone Srila Gurudeva , and I do all the externals of Bhakti, but I do not have constant lila smaranam , but at least I strictly chant 64 rounds as you have ordered me too .I am a mundane person and absorbed deeply in the mire of maya, I know you are serving happily Srila Rupa Manjari and Srila Rati Manjari in Nitya lila and I am here so far away from Krsnas lilas.

I beg you bring me close to your lotusfeet ,so I can always assist you in service to the divine couple. The priya narma sakhas assist the sakhis and manjaris in the service of Radha and Krsna.I do not know how I dare hope for such seva, but this is my only real desire .What use is this temporary world? I am not supposed to be part of this material world.Just like our Srila Prabhupada came to take us back to Godhead, on this holy Vyasa puja I beg you to glance at me once more mercifully and allow me to serve you lotusfeet in the Nitya lilas of Radha Shyamsundara and Gaura Gadadhara.I am willing to render one and all service you want me too, and I have no other shelter than your lotusfeet.I place beautiful jasmine flowers, more splendid than white pearls on your transcendental form.I beg you will be pleased with me, I feel bereft of you holy  association and most unfortunate.But by the grace of you Srila Gurudeva even I can develop prema bhakti for the lotusfeet of Radha Krsna

tvam gopikavrisharaves tanayantike 'se

sevadhikarini guronija-pada-padme

dasyam pradaya kurumam vraja-kanane shri-

radhanghri-sevana-rase sukhinim sukhabdhau

"O beloved spiritual master, you  are always in the presence of the cowherd girl Radha, the daughter of King Vrishabhanu. Please award me service at your lotus-like feet, which are the  proprietors of devotional service. Please place me in the ocean of joy by  bestowing upon me happiness in the mellows of service at the feet of Sri Radha  in the groves of Vraja Dhama."

mukam karotivachalam

pangum langhayategirim

yat-kripa tam ahamvande

shri-gurumdina-taranam

"I offer my respectful obeisances  unto my spiritual master, the deliverer of the fallen souls. His mercy turns the  dumb into eloquent speakers and enables the lame to cross mountains."

omajnana-timirandhasya

jnananjana-shalakaya

chakshur unmilitamyena

tasmai shri-gurave  namaha

"I offer my respectful obeisances  unto my spiritual master, who has opened my eyes, which were blinded by the  darkness of ignorance, with the torchlight of knowledge."

radha-sammukha-samsaktim

sakhi-sanga-nivasinim

tvam aham satatam vande

madhavashraya-vigraham

"O spiritual master, I  continually offer my obeisances unto you, who are always in the presence of  Srimate Radharani and very much devoted to Her. You always reside in the  association of Her confidantes, the gopis, and you are the abode of loving  devotion to Krishna."

nama-shreshtham  manum api shachi-putram atra svarupam

rupam tasyagrajam  uru-purim mathurim goshthavatim

radha-kundam  giri-varam aho radhika-madhavasham

prapto yasya  prathita-kripaya shri-gurum tam nato 'smi

"I bow down to the beautiful  lotus feet of my spiritual master, by whose causeless mercy I have obtained the  supreme holy name, the divine mantra, the service of the son of Shachimata [Lord Caitanya], the association of Shrila Svarupa Damodara, Rupa Gosvami, and his  older brother Sanatana Gosvami, the supreme abode of Mathura, the blissful abode  of Vrindavana, the divine Radha Kunda and Govardhana Hill, and the desire within  my heart for the loving service of Sri Radhika and Madhava [Krishna] in  Vrindavana."

he guro jnana-da dina-bandho

svananda-datah  karunaika-sindho

vrindavanasina  hitavatara

prasida  radha-pranaya-prachara

"O spiritual master, O giver of  divine wisdom, O friend of the fallen, you are the giver of your own bliss and  you are the only ocean of mercy. Although dwelling in Vrindavana, you have  descended for the welfare of fallen souls like myself and you are preaching the  divine love of Radha for Krishna. Please be kind upon me."

amsho bhagavato 'smy aham

sada daso 'smi  sarvatha

tat-kripapakshako  nityam

tat-preshthasat  karomi svam

"I am a tiny part and parcel of  the Supreme Lord and I am always and in every way His eternal servant. As I am  always hoping for His mercy and kindness, I offer myself to His most dear  servitor, my spiritual master."
Srila Gurudeva this offering is most intimatly offered to your lotusfeet ,but I will share it with the world out of love for you Srila Gurudeva.

I think myself the most unworthy of you many sons and daughters.But I know you will never leave my heart and birth after birth I will cry behind you Hare Krsna Hare Krsna Krsna Krsna Hare Hare hare Rama Hare Rama Rama Rama Hare Hare

In the dust of your holy lotusfeet I remain your eternal servant

Paramananda das