Avatara Sara by Srila Lochan das Thakur about dying twice

[Paramananda das]

Avatara Sara by Srila Lochan das Thakur



avatara sara, gaura-avatara
keno na bhajili ta’re
kori’ nire vasa, gela na piyasa
apana karama phere

kanta kera taru ,sadai sevili (mana)
amrita paibara
ase prema kalpataru (sri) gauranga amara
tahare bhavili bise

saurabhera ase, palasa sunkili (mana)
nasate pasila kita
ikshudanda bhavi’ katha chusili (mana)
kemane paibi mitha

hara baliya, galaya parili (mana)
samana-kiokara-sapa
sitala baliya aguna pohali (mana)
paili bajara-tapa

samsara bhajili, (sri) Gauranga bhulili,
na sunili sadhura katha
iha-para-kala, du’kala khoyali (mana)
khaili apana matha



Sri Gauranga is the essence of all avataras. Why didn’t I worship Him? It is as if I was surrounded by water and dying of thirst but I denied myself a drink. returning to my own fruitive activity

I chewed the thorns on the tree of worldly life and took the blood that flowed through my mouth to be nectar. When I was offered the nectarean fruits of love of Godhead distributed by Lord Gauranga, however, I turned them away, thinking them to be poison.

Wishing to smell perfume I sniffed at what I thought was the fragrant flower of material enjoyment. Alas, that flower was odorless like the palasa flower. When I tried to sniff its illusory aroma a bee flew up my nose and stung me. Thinking material life to be as sweet as sugarcane, I tried to taste its nectar. Instead, as I sucked I found it juiceless and dry. In this way, all my attempts at enjoyment proved false.

Admitting defeat, wasted, and worn out, I await the snake of death. Declaring it to be cool and soothing, I have embraced the fire of material life, only to suffer intense miseries, as if struck by lightning.

Worshiping family and material life I forgot Gauranga and didn’t listen to the words of the saints. Now, in my final days I realize that I am twice dead, for not only am I casting off this mortal body, but I am dead while living, having wasted my life in material indulgence (Mahajana-giti).

[Paramananda das]

Śrīmad Bhāgavatam 2.1.3

nidrayā hriyate naktaḿ

vyavāyena ca vā vayaḥ

divā cārthehayā rājan

kuṭumba-bharaṇena vā

SYNONYMS

nidrayā — by sleeping; hriyate — wastes; naktam — night; vyavāyena — sex indulgence; ca — also; vā — either; vayaḥ — duration of life; divā — days; ca — and; artha — economic; īhayā — development; rājan — O King; kuṭumba — family members; bharaṇena — maintaining; vā — either.

TRANSLATION

The lifetime of such an envious householder is passed at night either in sleeping or in sex indulgence, and in the daytime either in making money or maintaining family members.

PURPORT

The present human civilization is primarily based on the principles of sleeping and sex indulgence at night and earning money in the day and spending the same for family maintenance. Such a form of human civilization is condemned by the Bhāgavata school.

Because human life is a combination of matter and spirit soul, the whole process of Vedic knowledge is directed at liberating the spirit soul from the contamination of matter. The knowledge concerning this is called ātma-tattva. Those men who are too materialistic are unaware of this knowledge and are more inclined to economic development for material enjoyment. Such materialistic men are called karmīs, or fruitive laborers, and they are allowed regulated economic development or association of woman for sex indulgence. Those who are above the karmīs, that is, the jñānīs, yogīs and devotees, are strictly prohibited from sex indulgence. The karmīs are more or less devoid of ātma-tattva knowledge, and as such, their life is spent without spiritual profit. The human life is not meant for hard labor for economic development, nor is it meant for sex indulgence like that of the dogs and hogs. It is specially meant for making a solution to the problems of material life and the miseries thereof. So the karmīs waste their valuable human life by sleeping and sex indulgence at night, and by laboring hard in the daytime to accumulate wealth, and after doing so, they try to improve the standard of materialistic life. The materialistic way of life is described herein in a nutshell, and how foolishly men waste the boon of human life is described as follows.

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